Tuesday, July 14, 2009


That's my latest ink. I've been talking about getting it for ages, but the events of the last couple of weeks spurred me into putting my money where my mouth is.

Invictus is Latin. It means 'unconquered'.

I AM invictus, you see. No matter what happens to me, I will still be invictus. Under the bludgeonings of chance, my head may be bloody - but I will never bow it. Ever. I don't care how many threats of hellfire and damnation are levelled at me, I have CHOSEN this path I am on and I am unapologetic for what I think and what I feel. I am being true to myself; I AM the captain of my soul. I refuse to give some petulant, sadistic (Job, anyone?) deity any credit at all for my life; I have steered myself to where I am now and I will continue in that manner, come what may.

No matter what happens to me; whether this mass I have turns out to be benign or malignant, whether I ever regain full use of my arm, whether I cannot complete the PA program I want to attend, whether I ever work as an EMT again...no matter what, I am invictus. I will not change my personal beliefs and convictions because of what life throws at me, if anything I will cling to them even tighter in the face of adversity. I will not give in, and I will not give up.

I am an athiest. A heathen. An infidel.

I am a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother.

I am a human, and I am invictus.

1 comment:

Epijunky said...

I love you woman.

You simply rock my little world.

(By the way I'm ridiculously behind in reading, i'm so sorry...)